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Are you comfortable with your nest???

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As I sit here…..my 40th birthday rapidly approaching….I wonder to myself, am I so comfortable with my nest? My nest, my humble abode, my home, my pad, house, flat, dwelling, my shack, crib, residence, casa, my castle, my criznieee…..I look around at my pretty things, memorable items that I or my husband have collected over time…..pictures of our families adventures or good times that we’ve shared……but then I just sit and listen…..and smell. Letting my surroundings grip hold of me and fill my senses. I drifted off and day dreamed of when I was young and had ambitions and hopes of being some where else in this part of my life. I cried. Not because of regrets…because I have no regrets, and am happy for the most part that I am who I am, but because I didnt do more in my life. I wanted to be somebody….really “BE” somebody, to make a difference!  I wouldnt be me, if not for the past that I had. Yes, it was bad, traumatic, and horrible even, but in the end…it made me into me and now I can help others. My cousin once wrote, “you cant be a survivor without being a victim.” Great quote….its true…I AM  survivor…..and looking back…..I wouldnt have it any other way! I have had to learn to forgive myself, love myself….and start healing. Most of all….I have had to learn to “LIVE” my life…and start by doing it for me and nobody else. “Life is not a problem to be solved, but a reality to be experienced.

random pics March 2014 091   I took this picture while out a lovely Sunday…..the breeze was warm for a Spring day. Bees were out trying to awaken their lazy Winter slumber. There was people out, as if awakened from their zombie like slumber with coffee and mocha’s in hand. Children were  hard at play running and screaming, frolicking about, while their parents frantically chased after them…wishing they decided to stay home, others simply  smiled relishing in the occasion.  There was dogs on leashes, and strollers…..couples hand in hand in loving admiration. The air smelled of fresh cut grass and moist dampened earth. The sky was a array of tropical blue colors that scattered across the sky filling it with a sense of crisp clean freshness and adventure. It was a good day….a good day to be out and enjoy the outdoors. Across from where I was walking I had noticed there was a solemness and unique sense of quiet. I approached this building…uneasy and unsure of what was around the corner. I had felt a overwhelming sadness wash over me. I came to a door and I slowly stood and stared. I found myself looking blankly at a group of people that had gathered for what seemed to be some sort of service. The look on their faces seemed to define their feelings and they didnt try to hide it. Were they celebrating…or mourning?  The wheels turned in my mind. Oh how fast life can quickly be taken……often, and to frequently much to quickly for us to fully enjoy the loved ones we loose. I bowed my head and looked directly at some of them as if to say with my eyes that I express my condolences…and am sorry for their loss and pain. Words at these horrific points in life offer little to no sympathy or encouragement…. and often not enough can be said to comfort the suffering ones. I walked off…..a little embarrassed, and miffed at myself for stopping in the first place…..no matter how brief. As I walked away, I began to think about life….and the harsh realities that none of us are to prepared. If life were predictable it would cease to be life, and be without flavor.

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1nest

noun \ˈnest\

: the place where a bird lays its eggs and takes care of its young : a place where an animal or insect lives and usually lays eggs or takes care of its young

: a home where people live

Full Definition of NEST

a :  a bed or receptacle prepared by an animal and especially a bird for its eggs and young b :  a place or specially modified structure serving as an abode of animals and especially of their immature stages <an ants’ nest> c :  a receptacle resembling a bird’s nest
a :  a place of rest, retreat, or lodging :  home <grown children who have left the nest> b :  denhangout
:  the occupants or frequenters of a nest
a :  a group of similar things <a nest of giant mountains — Helen MacInnes> b :  hotbed 2 <a nest of rebellion>
:  a group of objects made to fit close together or one within another
:  an emplaced group of weapons

Examples of NEST

  1. The bird built a nest out of small twigs.
  2. If you look closely, you can see a nest in that tree.
  3. They lived in a cozy little nest in the suburbs.
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Are you comfortable with the way things are? Have you given your life much thought? Are you satisfied with where you are? DO you want more out of life? Have you told those that you love …just how much you love them? Did you get closure from  old wounds? Have you taken time to heal? Or forgiven those that needed it?
All questions that we go through life asking…..Are we ever fully prepared to loose someone? I found that  I asked these questions over and over to myself. There is much to life…..we take for granted. Its to short. Never promised. At any given moment can be taken way.
Every man dies. Not every man really lives.

William Wallace -Movie BraveHeart

life

noun \ˈlīf\

: the ability to grow, change, etc., that separates plants and animals from things like water or rocks : the period of time when a person is alive : the experience of being alive
plural lives 
Full Definition of LIFE
a :  the quality that distinguishes a vital and functional being from a dead body b :  a principle or force that is considered to underlie the distinctive quality of animate beings c :  an organismic state characterized by capacity for metabolism, growth, reaction to stimuli, and reproduction
a :  the sequence of physical and mental experiences that make up the existence of an individual b :  one or more aspects of the process of living <sex life of the frog>
:  biography 1
:  spiritual existence transcending physical death
a :  the period from birth to death b :  a specific phase of earthly existence <adult life> c :  the period from an event until death <a judge appointed for life> d :  a sentence of imprisonment for the remainder of a convict’s life
:  a way or manner of living
:  a vital or living being; specifically :  person <many liveswere lost in the disaster>
:  an animating and shaping force or principle
:  spiritanimation <saw no life in her dancing>
:  the form or pattern of something existing in reality <painted from life>
:  the period of duration, usefulness, or popularity of something <the expected life of the batteries>
:  the period of existence (as of a subatomic particle) — compare half-life
:  a property (as resilience or elasticity) of an inanimate substance or object resembling the animate quality of a living being
:  living beings (as of a particular kind or environment) <forestlife>
a :  human activities b :  animate activity and movement <stirrings of life> c :  the activities of a given sphere, area, or time <the political life of the country>
:  one providing interest and vigor <life of the party>
:  an opportunity for continued viability <gave the patient a new life>
:  something resembling animate life <a grant saved the project’s life>

Examples of LIFE

  1. He believes that God gives life to all creatures.
  2. She was happy and healthy for most of her life.
  3. The people in her family tend to have long lives.
  4. I’ve known her all my life.
  5. He is nearing the end of his life.
  6. People can expect to change jobs several times in their life.
  7. They’ve been waiting their whole life for an opportunity like this.
  8. What do you really want out of life?
  9. All this paperwork has made life much more difficult.
  10. The details of everyday life can be fascinating.

 Can you safely say that if taken away…or asked…..are you ready for whats next….are you happy with the life you lived?

Peace & Love to you on your journey in search for Love, Balance, & Harmony…..may you soul be filled with the simple pleasures in life…and never…ever taken for granted! ❤

4 thoughts on “Are you comfortable with your nest???

  1. cool man, thank you for the offer….its an honor…and like wise…if your in Washington! hit me up!

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