As I sit here…..my 40th birthday rapidly approaching….I wonder to myself, am I so comfortable with my nest? My nest, my humble abode, my home, my pad, house, flat, dwelling, my shack, crib, residence, casa, my castle, my criznieee…..I look around at my pretty things, memorable items that I or my husband have collected over time…..pictures of our families adventures or good times that we’ve shared……but then I just sit and listen…..and smell. Letting my surroundings grip hold of me and fill my senses. I drifted off and day dreamed of when I was young and had ambitions and hopes of being some where else in this part of my life. I cried. Not because of regrets…because I have no regrets, and am happy for the most part that I am who I am, but because I didnt do more in my life. I wanted to be somebody….really “BE” somebody, to make a difference! I wouldnt be me, if not for the past that I had. Yes, it was bad, traumatic, and horrible even, but in the end…it made me into me and now I can help others. My cousin once wrote, “you cant be a survivor without being a victim.” Great quote….its true…I AM survivor…..and looking back…..I wouldnt have it any other way! I have had to learn to forgive myself, love myself….and start healing. Most of all….I have had to learn to “LIVE” my life…and start by doing it for me and nobody else. “Life is not a problem to be solved, but a reality to be experienced.“
I took this picture while out a lovely Sunday…..the breeze was warm for a Spring day. Bees were out trying to awaken their lazy Winter slumber. There was people out, as if awakened from their zombie like slumber with coffee and mocha’s in hand. Children were hard at play running and screaming, frolicking about, while their parents frantically chased after them…wishing they decided to stay home, others simply smiled relishing in the occasion. There was dogs on leashes, and strollers…..couples hand in hand in loving admiration. The air smelled of fresh cut grass and moist dampened earth. The sky was a array of tropical blue colors that scattered across the sky filling it with a sense of crisp clean freshness and adventure. It was a good day….a good day to be out and enjoy the outdoors. Across from where I was walking I had noticed there was a solemness and unique sense of quiet. I approached this building…uneasy and unsure of what was around the corner. I had felt a overwhelming sadness wash over me. I came to a door and I slowly stood and stared. I found myself looking blankly at a group of people that had gathered for what seemed to be some sort of service. The look on their faces seemed to define their feelings and they didnt try to hide it. Were they celebrating…or mourning? The wheels turned in my mind. Oh how fast life can quickly be taken……often, and to frequently much to quickly for us to fully enjoy the loved ones we loose. I bowed my head and looked directly at some of them as if to say with my eyes that I express my condolences…and am sorry for their loss and pain. Words at these horrific points in life offer little to no sympathy or encouragement…. and often not enough can be said to comfort the suffering ones. I walked off…..a little embarrassed, and miffed at myself for stopping in the first place…..no matter how brief. As I walked away, I began to think about life….and the harsh realities that none of us are to prepared. “If life were predictable it would cease to be life, and be without flavor.“
Full Definition of NEST
Examples of NEST
- The bird built a nest out of small twigs.
- If you look closely, you can see a nest in that tree.
- They lived in a cozy little nest in the suburbs.
Examples of LIFE
- He believes that God gives life to all creatures.
- She was happy and healthy for most of her life.
- The people in her family tend to have long lives.
- I’ve known her all my life.
- He is nearing the end of his life.
- People can expect to change jobs several times in their life.
- They’ve been waiting their whole life for an opportunity like this.
- What do you really want out of life?
- All this paperwork has made life much more difficult.
- The details of everyday life can be fascinating.
Can you safely say that if taken away…or asked…..are you ready for whats next….are you happy with the life you lived?
Peace & Love to you on your journey in search for Love, Balance, & Harmony…..may you soul be filled with the simple pleasures in life…and never…ever taken for granted! ❤